Shattered Dreams

you look out the window. you see birds at the feeder. you see clouds coming in from the bay. you see the sun fade away. you go through all the things youve kept. you get sad songs. you can hear every instrument. you stay up late at night and wonder why. you watch movies that shouldnt make you cry until the sun comes up. you wonder whats left after sitting on your bed for 3 hours staring at the floor. you drink. you sleep. you wonder why anyone would want to be your friend. you try and fill the void with anything you can. you stop caring. you try to forget. you mask sadness with anger. you throw away all your drawings again. you try to write something but your mind is blank. you shut off. you shut down. you dont answer your phone. you dont call anyone. you burn all your bridges. you dont care about anyones problems. you read. you dont set goals. you give up hope. you still dream of those better days. you still think your chance will come.

you still dream.
you still remember.
you lose sight of it all.
you let yourself go.

ive wondered what ive been doing for the last 3 years...

Johnny Hates Jazz- Shattered Dreams