more than this

everyday that goes by feels like an eternity of crap.
next month would have been 4 years with some one i thought loved me. and after months of thinking, all the things we said, did... its clear that shes not only moved on, but never really cared. she catered to my needs to keep me hopeful. she needed a break from her normal life and i was that escape. when i was no longer needed i was pushed way off to the side.

i thought i had found the perfect girl. i was convinced she existed. i thought nothing could come between two people in love. but like always, i was the only one in love.

like everyone else shes become a cold soulless person. the girl i once knew, so funny, so smart, so cute in everything she did, has become disenchanted with everything.

to the girl who asked me to marry her, to the girl who made me feel like a real person for so long, to the girl who i thought was one in a million, merry christmas. thanks for taking the last best moments of my life, and most of all, thank you for beating me down and making me feel at my lowest during a time i needed you the most.

how the end... always is...


disintegration- the cure


more than this- the cure